This revelation is thirty years in the making. I've known this fundamental truth about life in limited or superficial capacities throughout my life. I've seen evidence of it at various points, especially during the transcendental enlightenment of my teenage years. But I've never really *got it* with full and deep clarity until this morning.
Life is not meant to be controlled.
My whole life I have suffered from something I like to call Shrinking Self Syndrome. The basic mechanics of Shrinking Self Syndrome are to build somebody up in your mind as if they were something flawless and intimidating of which you are totally unworthy...almost demigod like. When you do this, you suppress your own self to afford full reverence to the greatness before you. This prevents the “great” person from getting to meet YOU!
Example - The Job Interview
Andy is a curious soul with INFJ-T personality who likes to examine life closely and lives for those moments of deep revelation and spiritual connection.